Doodle Post
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posts dated from: january 2016
Doodle Post
I may have a huge backlog of doodles to post now since I took a big break from blog posts earlier this month, whoops.
Dev Log: Crap
Ugh I am pretty deep into whatever funk this is. I've tried starting up a few tasks today but to no avail really. I went through my list of stuff for some of my projects and tried grinding on a few of them with little to no actual progress to be found.
Today is one of those days where it feels like I get insanely frustrated at every little thing that doesn't turn out right. Everything feels like it's falling apart, nothing is working, and everything I try to create just turns out totally wrong, and I never know how to fix it.
I figure it would be healthier to share some of my thoughts rather than just keep them all to myself. Even right now I just feel so tired but I've accomplished a whole lot of nothing, so why am I so tired! Even that in itself is incredibly frustrating... I have no idea what I'm doing. I guess it's just another bad day.
Today is one of those days where it feels like I get insanely frustrated at every little thing that doesn't turn out right. Everything feels like it's falling apart, nothing is working, and everything I try to create just turns out totally wrong, and I never know how to fix it.
I figure it would be healthier to share some of my thoughts rather than just keep them all to myself. Even right now I just feel so tired but I've accomplished a whole lot of nothing, so why am I so tired! Even that in itself is incredibly frustrating... I have no idea what I'm doing. I guess it's just another bad day.
Dev Log: Poop
Trying to do creative stuff as my job isn't all puppies and rainbows unfortunately. Sometimes I just get into a pretty bad state of mind and my productivity plummets. It's a huge bummer too, because December was one of my best months in a long time as far as spending time productively goes.
Sometimes it just feels like a switch in my brain gets flipped and all the happiness and excitement I felt toward working on a project suddenly just becomes the opposite. It becomes anxiety and dread. Heck, even writing this blog post took way more energy than it should.
It's sort of a self sustaining cycle of bad vibes. I start to feel down about something, which results in me not getting a lot of stuff done as I usually do, which then results in me feeling bad about not getting a lot of stuff done. I'm not really sure how to fix it... but sitting down and writing this out is one of my attempts to.
I'm going to try to be more aggressive in shutting off distractions around me. Social medias, people streaming video games, all that kinda stuff. It is at some points useful, but when I start to drown my sorrows in them is when it becomes a problem.
I wish I just knew how to work all the time and not get these dumb feelings. Sometimes I feel so jealous of all the folks that are just able to sit down and grind out hours and hours of code and art seemingly without any issue. I feel like I'm the worst game developer ever! But hopefully sometime after this I wont feel this way anymore, and I'll look back on this post and be like "why did I write that, ugh."
Here's a screenshot of something which is better than just a picture of me staring into the endless void.
Sometimes it just feels like a switch in my brain gets flipped and all the happiness and excitement I felt toward working on a project suddenly just becomes the opposite. It becomes anxiety and dread. Heck, even writing this blog post took way more energy than it should.
It's sort of a self sustaining cycle of bad vibes. I start to feel down about something, which results in me not getting a lot of stuff done as I usually do, which then results in me feeling bad about not getting a lot of stuff done. I'm not really sure how to fix it... but sitting down and writing this out is one of my attempts to.
I'm going to try to be more aggressive in shutting off distractions around me. Social medias, people streaming video games, all that kinda stuff. It is at some points useful, but when I start to drown my sorrows in them is when it becomes a problem.
I wish I just knew how to work all the time and not get these dumb feelings. Sometimes I feel so jealous of all the folks that are just able to sit down and grind out hours and hours of code and art seemingly without any issue. I feel like I'm the worst game developer ever! But hopefully sometime after this I wont feel this way anymore, and I'll look back on this post and be like "why did I write that, ugh."
Here's a screenshot of something which is better than just a picture of me staring into the endless void.
Snapshot AGDQ Speedrun
At the start of the new year one of my game development dreams came true! That one game I worked on a billion years ago, Snapshot, was selected to be one of the games showcased in Awesome Games Done Quick!
This was a pretty big deal to me! I love the speed running, the speed running community, and Games Done Quick is like the biggest speed running event ever! This year they raised 1.2 million something dollars for charity, and reached over 200,000 viewers during the event!
But wait, there's more! Not only was Snapshot selected to be a part of the event, but I was also invited to appear live via voice chat to help commentate the speed run! The whole thing was captured on video:
I ended up having to wake up at six o'clock in the morning to catch the run in my timezone, but it was totally worth it. I think we ended up having 100,000 viewers for the Snapshot run, which is absolutely insane, and I'm guessing the largest audience I'll ever "appear" before. I'm happy I didn't puke during the run!
A huge thanks to Games Done Quick, Blechy, and Nightmare for setting it all up. You're all the best!
This was a pretty big deal to me! I love the speed running, the speed running community, and Games Done Quick is like the biggest speed running event ever! This year they raised 1.2 million something dollars for charity, and reached over 200,000 viewers during the event!
But wait, there's more! Not only was Snapshot selected to be a part of the event, but I was also invited to appear live via voice chat to help commentate the speed run! The whole thing was captured on video:
I ended up having to wake up at six o'clock in the morning to catch the run in my timezone, but it was totally worth it. I think we ended up having 100,000 viewers for the Snapshot run, which is absolutely insane, and I'm guessing the largest audience I'll ever "appear" before. I'm happy I didn't puke during the run!
A huge thanks to Games Done Quick, Blechy, and Nightmare for setting it all up. You're all the best!
