Dev Log: That Lost Feeling
I feel like days are just flying by lately. What have I even been up to?! The past week or so has probably been a record low in the motivation department, and I have no good idea why that is. I guess it just happens. Sometimes I just end up feeling totally lost as to what I should do, or what I should be working on.
I'm working a little bit on a board game idea that some local Phoenix developer friends came up with, and I'm poking around at finishing my two player coop action game, but overall my amount-of-work-getting-done value has dropped off a lot, and the crazy thing is just a week or so ago it felt like it was at an all time high! I've been doing creative stuff and making games and whatever else for years now and I still don't understand how it all works.
Sometimes it just seems like every other developer or creative person on the planet has everything figured out and I'm the only one that totally drops off the face of the earth for weeks. (I know that's pretty hyperbolic, but I'm not claiming to be rational here.) When I get programming demotivated I start to draw more, and you'd figure I'd draw art for my games, but the problem is that for some reason that stresses me out, and so I just start to doodle what makes me comfortable instead.
I'm going to try just fiddling around with Otter to see if I can get a spark going again for programming. I think some of this feeling might have to do with upcoming travel which always stresses me out beyond belief. I wish I didn't freak out so much whenever I have upcoming travel, but I'm not really sure how to fix it!
Oh well, game development isn't all sunshine and puppy dogs and rainbows or whatever. Sometimes it sucks, and it's really depressing! But maybe it will clear up again soon.
On the upside I've been watching Handmade Hero and so far it's been pretty awesome. It's going to be a complete series on making a game from scratch. It's opening my eyes to a lot of stuff that I thought was just dark magic, and there are a lot of great programming and development tips scattered throughout all of the videos.
I'm working a little bit on a board game idea that some local Phoenix developer friends came up with, and I'm poking around at finishing my two player coop action game, but overall my amount-of-work-getting-done value has dropped off a lot, and the crazy thing is just a week or so ago it felt like it was at an all time high! I've been doing creative stuff and making games and whatever else for years now and I still don't understand how it all works.
Sometimes it just seems like every other developer or creative person on the planet has everything figured out and I'm the only one that totally drops off the face of the earth for weeks. (I know that's pretty hyperbolic, but I'm not claiming to be rational here.) When I get programming demotivated I start to draw more, and you'd figure I'd draw art for my games, but the problem is that for some reason that stresses me out, and so I just start to doodle what makes me comfortable instead.
I'm going to try just fiddling around with Otter to see if I can get a spark going again for programming. I think some of this feeling might have to do with upcoming travel which always stresses me out beyond belief. I wish I didn't freak out so much whenever I have upcoming travel, but I'm not really sure how to fix it!
Oh well, game development isn't all sunshine and puppy dogs and rainbows or whatever. Sometimes it sucks, and it's really depressing! But maybe it will clear up again soon.
On the upside I've been watching Handmade Hero and so far it's been pretty awesome. It's going to be a complete series on making a game from scratch. It's opening my eyes to a lot of stuff that I thought was just dark magic, and there are a lot of great programming and development tips scattered throughout all of the videos.
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